after what happened last week, ive become more and more paranoid
i get too jumpy, i feel like someone or something is hiding behind me, i triple check every door and windows if it's already been locked. I'll check again in an hour if it's locked or not thinking i forgot to do it hours before.
i can't even stay in my own room now, it's a weird feeling being in my room with all the things that happened inside our home.
i just let go the fact that I'll never get to see all the files, documents and pictures ive saved on my laptop, pictures that holds some memories. I don't even know what peacefully sleeping means anymore. We've all become so paranoid that we check outside when we hear the slightest noise or when the dogs bark outside and there's nothing there, just pure darkness.
It's the security that's truly lost for me.
I can't even go out that long bec what if the return and steal some other things again, or worst, do something horrible with us while we're here.
Next month we have to be in attendance for my cousin's wedding which is like 5-6 hours away and i thought of not going with them so there's someone staying at home but my aunt wont let me. IDK what to do anymore lol
I'm getting more and more scared of people as time goes by and I can't even do anything to protect myself or my family.
All i wish for now is hearing the news that the culprits died of painful death, like they're being tortured before they took their last breath.
In that way, i can feel that I've got my revenge for stealing our peace of mind and security.
kbye
i can't even stay in my own room now, it's a weird feeling being in my room with all the things that happened inside our home.
i just let go the fact that I'll never get to see all the files, documents and pictures ive saved on my laptop, pictures that holds some memories. I don't even know what peacefully sleeping means anymore. We've all become so paranoid that we check outside when we hear the slightest noise or when the dogs bark outside and there's nothing there, just pure darkness.
It's the security that's truly lost for me.
I can't even go out that long bec what if the return and steal some other things again, or worst, do something horrible with us while we're here.
Next month we have to be in attendance for my cousin's wedding which is like 5-6 hours away and i thought of not going with them so there's someone staying at home but my aunt wont let me. IDK what to do anymore lol
I'm getting more and more scared of people as time goes by and I can't even do anything to protect myself or my family.
All i wish for now is hearing the news that the culprits died of painful death, like they're being tortured before they took their last breath.
In that way, i can feel that I've got my revenge for stealing our peace of mind and security.
kbye
