Thinking about a number of things as I struggle to find sleep
A couple of days ago Chiara may have let slip a thing that she might have been keeping secret for Edoardo, about his hardened erection, and I am not sure how to ask her to elaborate.
Yes I know she saw us having sex, we never close doors in my home, they are important yes if you need privacy but we never have. I feel sure she has seen many aspects of our sexual life when we were together. Me rubbing his penis, maybe even me fellating him and his giving me cunnilingus.
What perplexes me is twofold, if he ever let her watch him when he was masturbating (as he was given to do in bed and in the bathroom like many if not most men!), and if he ever got her in some way involved. He had very strong sexual needs and with what my father has found out my mind is overthinking at the speed of light!
I am troubled by this, and I have deep fears as I sit up and watch her sleeping next to me here in my bed. She fell asleep when my father gave her a massage, and I told him to leave her in my bed.
Yes I know she saw us having sex, we never close doors in my home, they are important yes if you need privacy but we never have. I feel sure she has seen many aspects of our sexual life when we were together. Me rubbing his penis, maybe even me fellating him and his giving me cunnilingus.
What perplexes me is twofold, if he ever let her watch him when he was masturbating (as he was given to do in bed and in the bathroom like many if not most men!), and if he ever got her in some way involved. He had very strong sexual needs and with what my father has found out my mind is overthinking at the speed of light!
I am troubled by this, and I have deep fears as I sit up and watch her sleeping next to me here in my bed. She fell asleep when my father gave her a massage, and I told him to leave her in my bed.
31-35, F
