Having a bad day

Its bad when you feel really down and your close to retirement age and you dont have any real close friends to lean on or shoulder your plms too , im feeling really sad after the other day visiting my 3 dog graves in the woods thinking that i may soon lose my license to drive for medical reasons, and who will visit my past pets and tell them stories about me when i pass on . It made me cry alot and still does thinking about it. But i have no one real close to confide in.,a few friends that your not comfortable in openning up in a tearful way. I feel so alone and depressed. I need a big long strong hug so i can have a good cathartic cry and feel better someone cares how emotional draining it can get growing old alone.

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ArishMell · 70-79, M

You say "may" lose your licence, so we'll keep our fingers crossed that it won't become "will".

I'm a similar situation regarding friends that close, but I do have quite wide circles, and some are local. Do you have any like that, or clubs or voluntary work to which you can contribute your abilities and interests?

(I will have been retired for 6 years this month.)

Tugasaki · 61-69, M

@ArishMell i have a pacemaker that will run out of power in 3 years, my dr.knows that i dont want it replaced that alone will make me lose my license but i deal with depression alot ,no one rwally close that i can confide in. I stick to myself mostly, was thinking of calling the suicide hotline a few times just to talk to someone , but afraid of wrong messages being said and having cops knock at my door, already happened 3 times before my mouth goes on before the brain has a time to catch up if you know what i mean.thanks fir listening.

ArishMell · 70-79, M

@Tugasaki Next time you want to talk to the hotline, why not first write down what you want to say? That will help you avoid saying the wrong things, and seeing it written down might even help you see a practical way round the problem. Suicide won't help you.

(By the way, you and I merely using that word will probably make SW put up an automatic advice to both of us to contact a help-line. We have a charity called The Samaritans in Britain, that offers a listening-service to the desperate, but I don't know if it or an equivalent is also active in your country.)

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