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I Am a Deep Thinker

It seems to be that our very pain points us in the direction of what we’re here to do. The hurt, that pain, has a purpose and a mission. Little did I know that the loss I experienced, served as a catalyst to help others find their way out of darkness.

I had written down something before, which of course, is nothing new to many.

"I am not what happened to me. I know that what happened to me in my past, was not the essence of me. I am not a victim, nor would I live the life of a victim. The self-judgments that I’d allowed to define me and my choices that I felt shackled to, I began to release when I learned to forgive myself and others for judging me. And there was freedom inside for the very first time.
Transformation didn't happen in a dramatic way, rather it was long and tedious. I carried the heaviest load. I was hard on myself, judging me in self-recrimination. Until, my soul felt tired. It began telling me enough of this heavy load. While it might seem that I was assisting some higher agenda by punishing myself or others with judgments, I was only choking off the natural flow of love. I realized forgiveness freed me to joyously do what I came here to do, and that is to give and to receive love.

I can’t think of a more powerful act of service than forgiveness. Nobody ever became a better person by judging what they did. With that, I knew it then I was going to survive the pain of my shattered life."

[image][b] We are not what happens to us. We are more than we've been through. [/b]
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Pain can drive you over the cliff if you allow it. I have experienced a division of myself so I could judge myself but who is good for anyone, divided. It takes God for the deep forgiveness. That is my experience for others and then myself.
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@SomeLikeItHot Very true, my friend. In darkness, we are given the chance, to self-recriminate. The darkness, no matter how long it takes, it too shall pass, and then you feel freedom, with a new way of thinking and living. For me, darkness is a privilege, not everybody is given that privilege in their lifetime. And not everybody is brave enough to go through it. But once you're out of it, and into His light, you are a new person. It's like a rebirth. You do not want to go back again into the old ways. You are forever changed.

Darkness is also grace, fierce grace.
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Your idea of fierce grace looks insistent and how overwhelming it is.
Maybe you can share that with me some day
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@SomeLikeItHot I will, thank you so much for your precious time to read my posts. It's my hope to able to share some insights from my little world. I hope I am able to touch souls like you with snippets about my "little" life.
@SW-User
“Little” is so big when shared with Love.
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Reminds me of the little boy with his fish and bread and it met the need of 1000s when Jesus stepped in.