I Am Always Thinking Deeply

My dads a lot sicker than they're allowing me to know. It's obvious. Reality is my dads slowly dying. It's taken me until now to realize that I've never had an actual conversation with my dad, my whole life! Part of me wants to fix this, I want to be able to say I have a relationship with my dad, but it's so weird between us. I've been shut out since day one. I hate seeing my dad so sick but I hate him for not being the dad to me that all of my friends have.

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ali37

Try and do it now hon , I missed my chance with my dad and I sooo regret it ,sooo many things I wanted to ask him , now I never can !

Justagirl23 · 31-35, F

I know. People tell me this all the time. Everything about his life is a big secret, like mine, I keep it totally private from my family. Every time I've tried to start a conversation with him he just shuts me out. I feel like he's disgusted by me and truthfully I don't understand, because were so similar, he knows this.

ali37

Well I don't know hon ,I didn't get on much with my dad and we fought tooth and nail , BUT , now he's dead I ssooo wish I bent over backwards to get some sort of dialogue going !

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