I Am Confused About My Feelings

Had to block one of my best friends due to constant drama and fights. If I so much as glanced at my Facebook newsfeed I was "ignoring" him because we weren't texting that moment. I've been sick since Friday and have missed 2 days of work but I'm "selfish" for not making time to chat. I work full time, am married, have 2 kids and pets too and I don't have much free time...all I ask is when I want space give me space. And it's just too much to deal with all the time. So right now I feel relief because finally no drama because I don't wanna chat for 2 hours straight but I am sad too. I have to figure out what to do.