I Am Confused About My Feelings

i’ve been in an ldr relationship since last year. i’ve known the guy since 2015. he confessed his feelings for me and we kind of got into a relationship without really knowing it.

lately he’s been really jerk-ish to me about my mental health, going as far as saying that i’m “not trying” because i was just doing what my dr told me to do and stay on antidepressants.

ever since then i kind of closed myself off from him, because any time i tried to talk to him about my issues or what was bothering me, he would get really aggressive. he would tell me what i should and shouldn’t be doing, while also acting like he cared and he just wanted me to get better.

i feel like a burden. if i didn’t get sick, maybe he’d still be happy. maybe we’d still be ok and not go weeks without talking or messaging.

i don’t know. i feel like at this point, we’re basically not even together anymore and we’re both just waiting for the other person to say they want to break up first :/

it sucks.