I Am Not A Good Writer Still I Like To Write My Thoughts

It’s possible that a Blind man can see after a transplant surgery. 😊
You can make a man pretending to be blind see, if you are persistent enough and wait for that one moment when he drops his guard. 😂
How can you make a healthy man sitting on a bed in a dark room see if he believes (not pretending) he is blind just because he refuses to switch on the light?😭😭😓😥

Albert Ron Manckoir is one such man. He WAS IN LOVE with the things he did not know he was in love with. He was NOT IN LOVE with what he believed he was in love with. 😥He states his fears very confidently but misdirects it.

Take his childhood experience.
Albert Ron Manckoir: I frequently experience gas, bloating or irritable bowel syndrome after consuming breakfast.
Mom: Don’t worry son. Your grandfather had celiac disease (gluten intolerance).
It was deep rooted in his mind. He is not gluten intolerant but suffers from mild form of lactose intolerance. This is a fact that he is blissfully unaware. The occasional bloating is due to the Oreo milkshake that he loves. Each time he gets this occasional bloating, he analyzed every single item that he swallowed. He conveniently forgets the Oreo milkshake that contained lactose because he was looking out for gluten in food items.

Albert Ron Manckoir is a man any women would love to walk down the aisle with. He had a heart of gold. He was pleasant and graceful. He rarely smiles (He probably thinks smile is taxable). When he does, it’s just slight curve but it lights up the room. He had perfect grey eyes and curly hair. At 29 he was single. Why?

Let’s see the different type of lactose sugars in his life that he is completely unaware of, also the wrong concepts he lives with is highlighted.

🛠LACTOSE sugar 1- GUILT.

Albert is capable of blaming himself for a dog’s death three bungalows apart because he had thrown thrash outside the bin of that bungalow. He has a new routine where he cross-checks every item in his trash. After all, he cannot murder another dog by the expired bacon disposed in the trash. Guilt was his birth right and he freely feels it.

1. As an innocent boy in high school, a girl fell in love with him and he agreed to love her back. They dated. He could not love her back. They broke up. He never dated another girl in high school again in guilt. [b]😱HE CONCLUDED THE ABSENCE OF SPARK WAS THE ONLY REASON THIS FAILED. [/b]. He claimed to feel this spark with only 4 women all this life. NONE OF WHOM HE DATED.

Repercussion AT 29 :1.BAGGAGE THAT BLINDS HIM[/c]

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2. The high school boy was now a gentleman. He over-read one of his crushes blog and he knew she was in love with another man. His heart broke. Ouch, it pains. The sadness was immense but deep down he was guilty. Guilty for bad behaviour. Guilty for stalking. Guilty for just everything. He may have told himself a million times that it was expected of him to be happy for her happiness. How righteous and virtuous! How selfless! , a normal person would read it. To someone who reads between lines it was so blinding.

[b][b]Repercussion AT 29: 2.BAGGAGE THAT GLITTERS AND YOU CAN NOT SEE THE REAL PERSON.
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3. In the heat of emotions, he heard himself say; “I would love running a race with you” he would give each other a genuine chance. He developed cold feet and backed out for which he again felt GUILTY. Is he God? Are his words the word of God? Did he take a vow? No. It was within his rights. He kept apologizing. He will continue apologizing for the next 10 years. Thankfully, his best friend understands him and will continue drilling in his head that he wasn’t wrong. To someone who reads between lines, there is a blinding effect that he hasn’t seen. What is it?

Repercussion AT 29: 3.BAGGAGE THAT MAKES YOU TAKE WRONG DECISIONS.[/c][/b]

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😍CONCEPT OF LOVE 😍

The concept of love is like a lamp.You may light a lamp with a candle (looks), a lighter (personality), a burnt paper (connection), a match box ( attraction etc). It will burn. If you want to keep it burning, you need a constant supply of ghee, oil or any inflammable. In human emotions the inflammable that keeps the flame burning is compatibility, understanding, transparency, trust, admiration. In short, there should be friendship and no regret that I am settling with someone substandard i.e. I can get better.

The high school incident became the BAGGAGE THAT BLINDS HIM and guilt ensured that he remains blind with wrong concepts. What were the wrong concepts?

a) The high school lady liked him so the lamp lit (dating began). He did not like her that strongly. Albert Ron Manckoir saw the lamp did not burn. He concluded candle is the wrong way to light a lamp. He believed he lacked the spark and hence the lamp had stopped burning.

The truth was that their relationship began with love from her side and like or neutrality from his side. After that they did not have the compatibility to keep it burning. There were no inflammable. They did not really enjoy their togetherness. It didn’t bloom to love. He had to move on. There is no point keeping a diseased hand when doctors fear gangrene and suggest amputation to save the life of the patient.
Guilt of the above act made Albert Ron Manckoir believe strongly that to start the lamp he must also have the spark. The Dude conveniently forgot the inflammables. He believed that he must be head over heels like he felt for particular 4 ladies.

😷He carried this High School incident late in his 29. How?
What was special with these 4 ladies? Would their relationship indeed be successful? 🤒[/c]

Albert Ron Manckoir spoke to the lady he liked and slept with a smile. 🤗😊😘

He got up past midnight with a shriek completely terrified.😣😤

The fears played in his head a million times. What if I DID NOT FEEL THE SPARK WITH HER? What if I then see the girl with whom I will feel that spark? I got to tell her a NO because I am with this lady I like. I cannot experiment and hurt her like I hurt the high school girl. I fear if I do not get the SPARK.🤧

His best friend felt some difference in his tone. Connection is something rare. Many things are said without using words but always felt. Oceans and mountains separated them but she felt uneasy. She knew there was something wrong. She took it on her to find it and then confront him in a non-confronting way. He would never dare to say “I changed my mind.” He would kill himself in worry. She flirted with him and he gave a cold response. She knew she had to face her worst fears.

“Gabriella Lucas Marrion” was the answer. Intuition is strength. She never understood his Facebook message but she knew her man’s heart. There was excitement that she felt that he may have experienced. “Does he still love her?” she asked. “He kissed a girl after that so may be No”; screamed her mind. NO, NO, NO she wanted to stay in denial and believing she was imagining things. Her heart said “yes”. She convinced herself. I will help him get over her and we will build our home together.

The Lie . The white Lie.

Rebecca[/c]: 🙎 Albert, At this very moment, if Gabriella came and said she loves you. What will you say?

Albert as usually felt GUILTY! Guiltiness again blinded him. He directly said my answer will be a yes. He then went on apologetic mode saying he should have stated his fears before. He confined how miserable he felt for this answer. He apologized for his feelings.

Clap Clap Clap 🎖 " Oh Blind Man,". There is a difference between Love and obsession. Obsession is when you keep rationality aside. Medal for your Obsession. Medal for your misdirected fears.

Liam Hemsworth broke up with Miley Cyrus after the twerking gig. 😭 He got back to her. 😍 They are now engaged again. Why? He knew and cherished, a part of Miley, the world does not know. I have cried through many of movies where two best friends miss their togetherness and reunite.

Gabriella Lucas Marion by profession, is a lady who reads mind. He🤓 had to read her blog to know she was in love. Couldn't she tell him? I know we don't discuss lovestory with everyone. You definitely tell a man who asked you out twice and still has love in his eyes. Not one Christmas or a NewYear or his birthday, she dropped in to make him happy in the capacity of a friend. Miles apart , His best friend knows the thickness of his new mattress! The point is the probability of a reunion of two people who do not have a transparent relationship and do not have a history of happy moments together is impossible.

No movie all over the world has scripted a scene where a woman comes back to say date me. 😜 It has always been " I miss you. Marry me."

Suppose Gabriella Lucas Marion came back, there is three steps any man would do.
1. Experience 99 percent trust and 1 percent fear.

Canada and USA are friends. Since inception, both were developed and had a legacy. USA and Mexico are not friends. Suppose Mexico becomes world's biggest market and super power in 2030. USA will open/ tear down the wall Trump build. The point is economics or any reason makes someone do things they once didn't want. May be Gabriella broke up with her OLD boyfriend and wanted to flaunt her NEW boyfriend to make him jealous. Most ladies change Facebook profile photos when they want to get back at their ex. Is it wise to blindly believe her and say yes?

Did she earn that 100 percent trust?
Is spark a filter to ensure the other person is trustworthy?

2. Trust the other stakeholder. Do not be selfish. Let her have a say. The man takes the final call but confides in his best friend.

3.Final step : Analyse saying Yes is worth taking the risk.

The Last nail - The more I think about it, the more I feel it is a bad idea.

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"The more I think of it. I can not handle it "; said his best friend.[/big]

Your friend's wife had a baby. When the father took the soft baby with closed eyes in his arms. He held his wife close and knew this was his family. If there was no spark , spark would have been created by then... 4 women want it? No. I do.

When your lady drops by your workplace and watch your artworks. Art and Music is her weakness but she takes a genuine liking. At the end of the tired day, Hug you tight and sleep. Spark is bound to ignite. 4 women want it? No. I do.

You can have all the love making in the world with confidence and no anxiety coz you know your girl will just laugh if you fail. Spark is bound to happen..

She leans on your shoulder and watches the stars because her favorite movie tickets were overpriced for weekends and she decides a No. Spark is bound to ignite.... Gabriella Lucas will let go her movie parties to save for your glass college? 3 other woman want it? No. I do

Her world broke like a bubble when you said that you will say "YES to Gabriella ". She fought with her emotions. With tears in her eyes she was trying to pep you up because you had a heavy day at work. The girl you have a spark for would do that for you? May be yes !!!!! May be NO. For me , it is forever you are first. It has always been that way

May be the spark with Gabriella and the other 3 ladies is like a space rocket. Intense. It may loose steam later. [big]DON'T YOU FEAR THAT.
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Don't you feel that had you dated them you can't actually tell them every single thing???

Physical barriers are easy to break. Mental barriers are not.

God bless you to find that girl you have the spark and the qualities to keep the lamp glowing. I am sure the 4 woman , you did not date may not have the qualities needed to keep it going.

In my opinion, it is easier to take a 1200 dollars risk and fail.Then take a bigger risk of keeping the spark burning with the same intensity when you don't know the 4 women at a personal close level. It is easier to ignite a spark then keep the spark burning.

I end with the story with .. You think it would have worked with those 4 women. It wouldn't have. They did not respect or admire you. You were obsessed and did not even know their real basic nature. I loved SPC Michael James Smith once. You loved SPC Michael James Smith 4 times. We do not know the real person but feel strongly.

Take the wake up call before it gets too late so that u don't dump the next good women.

You are behaving like a stubborn stock broker who sells health , love and all he has to buy a house in NYC. At 40, he realizes the years he lost. Gabriella Lucas Marion is an illusion and so is the other woman you feel the spark.

You are behaving like a small baby who insist on candy floss when he has NewYork cheese cake. He trades everything to only know that's sugar and color coated.

Marrying is not a happy ending. A successful marriage is a happy ending..

I part as a successful friend showing u the mirror. If you want to save yourself, wake up before it's late.

I care and I care enough not to manipulate you for personal gains. I need to show u the mirror.