Thoughts about sundry things
This will be a book length collection of the stupidity that comes out of my head through all the screwy paths that end up as words you see here.
1. One is quickly pointed to the fact that perfection doesn't exist, not in the physical sense, the sense that you can see touch and feel but that is not what I mean, but rather it is one's own ideal, which is the end result of all the filters you've made use of, everything you've read, heard and seen, and experienced in general, should be gradually giving you an idea of what is best for certain things, my obsession is expression, when I fail to choose the most accurate term for something, that is lacking in perfection, if I could express something perfectly, it means I chose the most accurate words, in the most effective manner that was possible for me, a human who will always not be perfect, but in the mode of effort made, reaches it tenuously.
2. When one is seeing a certain matter that there has never been an adequate way of speaking about it, all such efforts are immune to criticism from my own perspective because as harsh as anyone can be, it's my problem to get better, not do it the way others would think is best, what is best for you and you over there, would be even worse for me.
3. I am a person who has only always dabbled in what was interesting, in this latter half of 2026, a levelling up to the next level is being attempted, it's not a for sure thing, and it could cause a fall down a few steps, making me a little closer to how I was a few decades ago.
4. What would make us strive to be better if we weren't having an ideal to work towards? There's other ways sure, but this is my method, my theoretical word picture to express what is being attempted. Are we denigrating the idea of perfection out of a lazy ideology?
5. All we experience, all of that if known to those who speak to us, would not be enough even for the kindest and most upright person, what would be needed for a whole account would be the kind of knowledge of us that a God would have, to know our psychological history and growth for one thing, and the psychological aspect is for me in Literary form is for me a corrective to all the theology being used so that with all the crucial elements in the huge array which literature forms only the largest chunk, a more pristine and flawless expression can emerge, and grow like a human being from toddler to grown up.
6. Listening to William Blake's The Marriage of Heaven and Hell -- the parts of this that sound like aphorisms, the kind you find in the French Moralists, those are the good parts for me in this work, all the allegory in Blake I have no time available to ponder them too much. All such esoteric pathways shall be left unpursued by me. If I could like Cher, turn back time, maybe I would have gotten into that more, but there's no point getting into it now, I need to think through Christianity via only the Reformed presentation of it, once I have definitely thought through it so that it no longer can be seen as viable under any consideration, will it not be thought about anymore.
7. The viable through consideration is a whole network of points which one uses to consider everything {I shouldn't say everything, but rather the selection of things thought worthy of taking up the rapidly vanishing amount of time left in which to spend}, some are very different, one in particular is unlike all the others. Christianity is to me, only what the Reformed is. All the others in the mixture under consideration are within a tightly and smoothly knit community of aesthetics.
8. Aesthetics -- the beautiful not only in and of the surface, but applied to an as of yet unspecified amount of major avenues. With psychology, I declare that on July 27, 2026 at 3 in the morning that psychology is only useful up to the point when Christianity becomes a thing I never even think about anymore. Then all there will be will be Aesthetics.
9. What was just said is an example of a strain of thought I veer into, which I foolishly adopt as my own without letting it settle so I can then see how utterly buffoonish it is, so all I say here will often include this kind of thing and then I'll attempt to catch them all as they become clear to me.
10. The esoteric, which I acknowledge I haven't a clear picture of, has only represented to me an all too technical approach, it's as unmoored from the real as theology is, I thus remove it at least till i'm done with Christianity as a classical theological matter. Perhaps after that is done, I could follow the rabbit into Blake and all of the esoteric types of things, but, and this is so huge it requires a new number.
11. Time -- One foot in the books and all the other interests, but then there is what there is in what is in the physical world, the nitty gritty details, the stopwatch counting down, we can't see how much time is left, that is a given. If brought up, as if I didn't already know, i'll just calmly remind you of that. The matters of what can be appropriated outside of some machine your typing stuff on, well everything, and this is the right word at this use of it, everything must fit together. There are many things that fit together perfectly only if you not consider other things in the everything outside the use of your wifi object.
12. The approach -- the approach is the prism --- they work in unison --- it makes more sense, the more I think about it.
13. If you keep insisting on the truth, expect to be jailed from a corrupt institution that cannot adequately make a solid argument.
14. At the beginning the foundation is usually laid out all at once, but that is not going to happen here, it is brick by brick, and as it comes to me. There is no other way but the way that is happening. Many factors are being as atoms or something like that going through the vessels, the illustrations are attempts to define things I would have needed specialized learning for. It always will be attempts, and the attempt itself shall need to become an aesthetic expression, of transformation to the realm opposite of where the previous focus was.
Theology -- as being of infinite value only when a realm beyond the perceptible is warranted with a yearning for it, I only yearn it's cessation, I want this to drag on for as long as it's needed to be thorough.
Aesthetics -- the arts basically, and also using one's imagination for technical things, but not to commit those recipes to memory, for what is the use for advancing such a spurious thing as what let's say the look of something looks only from a very specific angle and framing.
When a matter, a situation is described adequately, it's like a picture of a country from space, to keep getting more detail on that geographical place then requires ever more words, and it involves participation.
I have probably been in the process of communicating with others for a combined amount of time through close to 50 years roughly the amount of time it would take to watch a single season of a tv program.
Music is the ultimate expression of things
1. One is quickly pointed to the fact that perfection doesn't exist, not in the physical sense, the sense that you can see touch and feel but that is not what I mean, but rather it is one's own ideal, which is the end result of all the filters you've made use of, everything you've read, heard and seen, and experienced in general, should be gradually giving you an idea of what is best for certain things, my obsession is expression, when I fail to choose the most accurate term for something, that is lacking in perfection, if I could express something perfectly, it means I chose the most accurate words, in the most effective manner that was possible for me, a human who will always not be perfect, but in the mode of effort made, reaches it tenuously.
2. When one is seeing a certain matter that there has never been an adequate way of speaking about it, all such efforts are immune to criticism from my own perspective because as harsh as anyone can be, it's my problem to get better, not do it the way others would think is best, what is best for you and you over there, would be even worse for me.
3. I am a person who has only always dabbled in what was interesting, in this latter half of 2026, a levelling up to the next level is being attempted, it's not a for sure thing, and it could cause a fall down a few steps, making me a little closer to how I was a few decades ago.
4. What would make us strive to be better if we weren't having an ideal to work towards? There's other ways sure, but this is my method, my theoretical word picture to express what is being attempted. Are we denigrating the idea of perfection out of a lazy ideology?
5. All we experience, all of that if known to those who speak to us, would not be enough even for the kindest and most upright person, what would be needed for a whole account would be the kind of knowledge of us that a God would have, to know our psychological history and growth for one thing, and the psychological aspect is for me in Literary form is for me a corrective to all the theology being used so that with all the crucial elements in the huge array which literature forms only the largest chunk, a more pristine and flawless expression can emerge, and grow like a human being from toddler to grown up.
6. Listening to William Blake's The Marriage of Heaven and Hell -- the parts of this that sound like aphorisms, the kind you find in the French Moralists, those are the good parts for me in this work, all the allegory in Blake I have no time available to ponder them too much. All such esoteric pathways shall be left unpursued by me. If I could like Cher, turn back time, maybe I would have gotten into that more, but there's no point getting into it now, I need to think through Christianity via only the Reformed presentation of it, once I have definitely thought through it so that it no longer can be seen as viable under any consideration, will it not be thought about anymore.
7. The viable through consideration is a whole network of points which one uses to consider everything {I shouldn't say everything, but rather the selection of things thought worthy of taking up the rapidly vanishing amount of time left in which to spend}, some are very different, one in particular is unlike all the others. Christianity is to me, only what the Reformed is. All the others in the mixture under consideration are within a tightly and smoothly knit community of aesthetics.
8. Aesthetics -- the beautiful not only in and of the surface, but applied to an as of yet unspecified amount of major avenues. With psychology, I declare that on July 27, 2026 at 3 in the morning that psychology is only useful up to the point when Christianity becomes a thing I never even think about anymore. Then all there will be will be Aesthetics.
9. What was just said is an example of a strain of thought I veer into, which I foolishly adopt as my own without letting it settle so I can then see how utterly buffoonish it is, so all I say here will often include this kind of thing and then I'll attempt to catch them all as they become clear to me.
10. The esoteric, which I acknowledge I haven't a clear picture of, has only represented to me an all too technical approach, it's as unmoored from the real as theology is, I thus remove it at least till i'm done with Christianity as a classical theological matter. Perhaps after that is done, I could follow the rabbit into Blake and all of the esoteric types of things, but, and this is so huge it requires a new number.
11. Time -- One foot in the books and all the other interests, but then there is what there is in what is in the physical world, the nitty gritty details, the stopwatch counting down, we can't see how much time is left, that is a given. If brought up, as if I didn't already know, i'll just calmly remind you of that. The matters of what can be appropriated outside of some machine your typing stuff on, well everything, and this is the right word at this use of it, everything must fit together. There are many things that fit together perfectly only if you not consider other things in the everything outside the use of your wifi object.
12. The approach -- the approach is the prism --- they work in unison --- it makes more sense, the more I think about it.
13. If you keep insisting on the truth, expect to be jailed from a corrupt institution that cannot adequately make a solid argument.
14. At the beginning the foundation is usually laid out all at once, but that is not going to happen here, it is brick by brick, and as it comes to me. There is no other way but the way that is happening. Many factors are being as atoms or something like that going through the vessels, the illustrations are attempts to define things I would have needed specialized learning for. It always will be attempts, and the attempt itself shall need to become an aesthetic expression, of transformation to the realm opposite of where the previous focus was.
Theology -- as being of infinite value only when a realm beyond the perceptible is warranted with a yearning for it, I only yearn it's cessation, I want this to drag on for as long as it's needed to be thorough.
Aesthetics -- the arts basically, and also using one's imagination for technical things, but not to commit those recipes to memory, for what is the use for advancing such a spurious thing as what let's say the look of something looks only from a very specific angle and framing.
When a matter, a situation is described adequately, it's like a picture of a country from space, to keep getting more detail on that geographical place then requires ever more words, and it involves participation.
I have probably been in the process of communicating with others for a combined amount of time through close to 50 years roughly the amount of time it would take to watch a single season of a tv program.
Music is the ultimate expression of things
46-50, M
