Monday -- May 4, 2026
I'm gonna be walking to my doc tomorrow afternoon, be there at 2pm, with 70 dollars, the fee for him to do those forms. More money from sales will be coming in a week from now.
It's my exciting practice I'm settling into that makes me want to post something now.
So it will take at least a month before I have all the books I can fit in a weekly program, a lot of it is Reformed theology, so what my screwed up head deems to be an interesting way to go through all that material as a non-believer who grew up with it, is to listen to Extreme Metal, that more times than not have a theatrical satanism woven into them, featuring mostly Black Metal albums. To relisten to the best of them, and becoming more and more familiar with them, some great energy can be found!!
There's quite a bit of content creators on YT that focus on these things too, there was this one guy who's actually in a band giving his top 20, and loads of goodies, and 99.99% of the time the albums are on YouTube!! I think back to my teenage years, if I had the internet then, I'd never want to do all the things I begrudgingly did back then.
It's fun times for me, but the less I outwardly do the better, until I can speak with a bare minimum of authority of the things i'm immersing myself in.
It's basically just a little war in my head with religious baggage and the novelty of combining it with a thematic polar opposite, inherent beliefs have nothing to do with either, when it comes to what I hold dear, and believe is a kind of humanism that keeps to it's own lane in the traffic of life, nurturing a few isms in the bosom, such as Stoicism, Cynicism, Nihilism and a Pothead aesthetic of oooh and aaahh.
It's my exciting practice I'm settling into that makes me want to post something now.
So it will take at least a month before I have all the books I can fit in a weekly program, a lot of it is Reformed theology, so what my screwed up head deems to be an interesting way to go through all that material as a non-believer who grew up with it, is to listen to Extreme Metal, that more times than not have a theatrical satanism woven into them, featuring mostly Black Metal albums. To relisten to the best of them, and becoming more and more familiar with them, some great energy can be found!!
There's quite a bit of content creators on YT that focus on these things too, there was this one guy who's actually in a band giving his top 20, and loads of goodies, and 99.99% of the time the albums are on YouTube!! I think back to my teenage years, if I had the internet then, I'd never want to do all the things I begrudgingly did back then.
It's fun times for me, but the less I outwardly do the better, until I can speak with a bare minimum of authority of the things i'm immersing myself in.
It's basically just a little war in my head with religious baggage and the novelty of combining it with a thematic polar opposite, inherent beliefs have nothing to do with either, when it comes to what I hold dear, and believe is a kind of humanism that keeps to it's own lane in the traffic of life, nurturing a few isms in the bosom, such as Stoicism, Cynicism, Nihilism and a Pothead aesthetic of oooh and aaahh.
