I'm having a big chili meal

2 cans, the Stagg brand tastes the best imo, this will fill me up, and there will only be 2 days after this before I can get more chow, on Tuesday seeing dad, will get something while out for myself, and early in the morning on that day will place a grocery order, grocery orders are thee reason why I cannot spend on the things I used to, all my meals that are to be heated get heated in the microwave, I have a bowl I have them in the canned stuff, and right after I finish eating them I rinse it out and let it soak in soapy water in the washroom, because the kitchen is overrun by mice, and the kitchen sinks cannot be used, all the water bottles I use to make coffee are in them.

I shall stop posting for awhile and be a man of my posts, and be actually solitary with my thoughts and books, plus movies and music, and when I feel I can share something that isn't 100% self indulgent i'll do so.

I shall refrain from interfering with other people's experiences at least for awhile, only when i'm more sure of myself and not so introspective will I dare to comment on what anyone else is going through, I do love a lot of you, and my silence is to be taken as a sign of solidarity with your anguishes and torments, nothing I say could make anything better.