Catching up with my inner thoughts.

When I decided to take a break from my pointless self control, call it endless and unreal. Attraction hits me hard... It controls me more than I do. It becomes complicated because sooner I’ll be overwhelmed at the same time. Self control comes in and messes me up again, that is when I become indifferent. I am indenial and the other reciprocates. Intuitively, I think everybody seems to look for love that we keep on denying. Scary and surreal. We keep to complicate things as it gets harder to come to us. Thus all pretend to be strong and make responsibilities but after it is done, hello emptiness. Just as the same.. emptiness is undeniable but strangely we manage to deny but still insatiably empty.