In 70 hours i'll try again to lead a monastic hermetic life
No more interactive activities, a serene humble existence full of reading and watching fine films.
In the past i've tried this close to 100 times, things are winding down, the 3 of us here are progressively malfunctioning, and for my mind i have need of an enforced solace, of as little as possible to cause concern.
By uttering or doing or not doing anything here on a minute and maximal levels creates instances of disquiet, that is the gist of this, through books there is a vicarious dealing with such matters, but there will be no new grand cycle or arc for me.
I am content with how i spent my last month or 2 here, not one ill feeling with anyone, it's just time to get real, finish great books instead of foolishly sharing what i just got, when i finish something there'd be an expectancy to talk about it, and that would be a healthy thing, but that would then mean there's a expectancy for a further cycle, and there isn't, so the purpose of vicarious living through books and films is not to gain wisdom and bravery for a next stage, it is rather for me a time of reflection, and closing some circles left incomplete from a wasted life.
✌️😌
In the past i've tried this close to 100 times, things are winding down, the 3 of us here are progressively malfunctioning, and for my mind i have need of an enforced solace, of as little as possible to cause concern.
By uttering or doing or not doing anything here on a minute and maximal levels creates instances of disquiet, that is the gist of this, through books there is a vicarious dealing with such matters, but there will be no new grand cycle or arc for me.
I am content with how i spent my last month or 2 here, not one ill feeling with anyone, it's just time to get real, finish great books instead of foolishly sharing what i just got, when i finish something there'd be an expectancy to talk about it, and that would be a healthy thing, but that would then mean there's a expectancy for a further cycle, and there isn't, so the purpose of vicarious living through books and films is not to gain wisdom and bravery for a next stage, it is rather for me a time of reflection, and closing some circles left incomplete from a wasted life.
✌️😌
