My private therapist keeps trying to make me go out of the house

I keep telling her I’m too depressed to , I can’t hardly eat , I don’t want to be alive right now , she won’t listen , she keeps saying try to do something outside of your house. I don’t think anyone wants to be around me when I’m like this. I keep randomly crying over what’s happened two nights ago , I don’t want to start crying in the store. I pay a lot of money to get help , I just wished she would stop trying to force me to go outside. I don’t think going outside will make my crush like me back or solve my relationship issues. That’s what’s wrong with me.