What if the person closest to you was the devil in disguise?

Like I try so hard to be a good person. But I do occasionally have really bad thoughts. And I don't know why they happen or where they come from. I heard theyre intrusive thoughts. But I read a lot of the news, articles everyday. And someone just snaps and ends up killing their whole family or friends. When they used to be a good person. How does a good person turn evil and twisted so suddenly. I would often think to myself. Will I turn evil one day. But it's not my nature. I rather kill myself then have anyone hurt. But when I'm angry I have trouble controlling myself and my emotions. So I take mood stabilizers. It happens everyday. The person you knew yesterday is not the same person today. And that is a scary thought.

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JustGoneNow

I tried to kill my boyfriend at the time in our bed, and almost succeeded. I was having an episode (unmedicated) and thought he was trying to kill me. Anyone is capable of anything. Period.

ScarletWitch · 31-35, F

@JustGoneNow I'm glad you had not. There are people in prison who don't deserve prison and should be institutionalized. And to be sentenced your whole life in a cell when your mentally ill is cruel in nature. I'm glad you are alright.

JustGoneNow

@ScarletWitch he held me down until the police came so I couldn’t hurt him.

JustGoneNow

@ScarletWitch I was so scared. I thought I was gonna die.

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