I Like to Be Alone With My Thoughts Sometimes

Once again im reminded by my drunk asshole of a father that im better off alone. Its inevitable that I end up acting somewhat like him. My brother already acts somewhat like him. Eventually I too will act like him as well. Its times like these im remind myself to take a step back from the few I know. Its hurtfull as there's someone I would like to get close to. Maybe once my role as "gaurd dog" is over maybe I can... shit my thoughts are getting quite hazardous and hurtful.