Anxiety: things are getting harder.

Today I really didn't want to go to therapy because I just wanted to work on school things and I was happy there. But I had to.

I cried the entire way there, and I tried not to act like a child, tried to brave and stop crying, but it was impossible.
When I got there, things got worse because I was bad and rude, and I don't know if my therapist wants me to come back even when he told me he wants to help me.
I'm tired of feeling this way. I want to be happy.