Why living is a hell

Why is it that even when I want to die, I still think about how people will think of me when I'm gone? I don't want to be a trend. I still worry about what people will think about me, even in death. I just want to be forgotten, like I never existed. I just want to disappear and leave no trace.

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riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

Everyone at some stage in there lives wanted to die ,but they don't say nothing .
Your not alone there at all my friend .
I was at that stage at your age .
29 . Broken relationship. Buried a friend . Nervous Breakdown. Psyche ward for 6 weeks , a suicide attempt 3 in 6 weeks . Got badly bullied at a job .
Thought I lost God . Lost hope in life .
Black thinking . Driven the car all of hours in the morning . Trying to stay sober and clean in the midst of it
That's was at 29 .
The moral of the story .
Everything passes . I'm sober 19 years now and clean and I took no part in that . It was God .
See everything passes . Your not alone in that 😊