I wish i was THAT friend for the people i know

I wish my "friends" would see my friendly, fun side not just the quite girl who only reads and never joining them they ruined my friendship with them they exclude from literally everything and when i am assigned to sit next to them they find a weird way to body shame me.... Why is god doing this to me i dont deserve i never hurted anyone in my life but people do it to me from time time i had enough i am also human i also have feelings but people just dont care bc they think i dont mind or anything... I HATE MY LIFE BC OF THEM ....... I wish people liked me more