Anti social

I used to be outgoing. Wanting to talk to everyone make friends. I was a people pleaser and I think I still am one. But through life being a doormat and only doing what the other person wants I feel like I lost myself. I feel like I'm a boring person. I don't like to be the person to start a conversation because I don't want to be annoying. I've been told to shut up when I talk or just plain ignored that now I have a hard time speaking up. I want to make friends but I really don't know how. When people ask what I like and what I want to do, I really have to answer. I lost my identity a long time ago. One problem is I didn't think I'd live past 16 so now I feel like I didn't think I'd make it this far I don't know what to do. I feel so lonely but I can't talk to people. It's hard sometimes. I make people mad at me because I don't know what to talk about, or I don't reach out to start a conversation. It's just super hard for me now.

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perceptivei · 36-40, F

Then, talk to someone.

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I couldn't resist.

Lol. These crack me up.

Ok, ok ... um.... let me think...

What makes you different than me or anyone else? Lol. NOTHING!

I'm sorry you think you're different. Life only gets harder. Love the people you do have in your life now, because that's what will matter the most to you, in the end.

If you can't talk to your people or whoever matters to you now, you should find a way. It hurts when they go away. That's how I'll feel for the rest of my life. I'd protect my pets and family before anything else. So, screw it, if i can't talk to just anyone else. Exercise so your brain and body works better. Focus on financial security, because you'll need it. Don't drink in excess and don't use drugs. Take care of your brain (even your vision). Be grateful for power, gas, and food.

Think about how you'll live five years from now, and if you should even bring children into this world right now.

Don't worry about being able to talk to everyone. Focus on your real health.

To be honest, I wouldn't trust just anyone getting paid to "talk to me". Life is hard.