Reading this, I can feel the weight of what you're carrying. Grief is such a complex journey and I admire how you’re allowing yourself to experience it fully, without rushing or hiding anything. Your strength is in your honesty acknowledging the pain while still holding on to your faith. It’s not about being strong all the time, but about being real with yourself. I hope you’re able to find moments of peace as you navigate this.

you know.. you have the ability somehow to hold yourself...even if the situation is big as such a loss is. I am sorry to hear about your loss, but I like how you are expressing it.

Everybody has their own way of handling loss of a loved one. Nobody has a right to tell you that youre handling it wrong. You need to go at your own pace and take it day by day