I Was Bullied

I was bullied my whole childhood. I was an easy target being physically smaller than the other boys. I was shy, I kept to myself and spent a lot of time alone drawing. I was very into art and drawing and spent a lot of time in my own world. There were days I would walk home in tears, I was weak and everyone knew it. I attempted to join the football (soccer team) in junior highschool but quit after 3 days. I quit because I was picked on there and nobody made me feel welcomed.

My experience overall in highschool turned more violent than it was in prior years. Before it was just words or actions but then came fists. I would get beat up. To this day my nose is crooked from getting busted in a fight. I had enough of it and asked my parents to transfer to another school. They agreed and I spent the rest of my school career happier. I had made friends, the other students were friendlier to me, I was not getting punched anymore.

In a way I blame myself for not standing up for myself more and for letting everything happen for as long as it did. A lot of blame was placed on me by my family for being different. If you cut your hair and not wore it long nobody would say anything. If you did not dress differently you would blend in more. If you did not do strange things you would not come home in tears. I understand they meant well but I cannot help but to think they were embarrassed for their child to be the "weird kid".