I Am Sometimes Antisocial

BECAUSE....I'm the most sensitive, most emotionally fragile, most insecure girl in the world. Always fearful. Scared of rejection. Scared of being hurt. When doubts creep in, I shut down to protect myself....

BECAUSE..., 'tis what I know how to cope up. The rabbit hole is where I'm safe, at peace and comfortable; a monotonous life, no risks, no conflicts, no hurts. In solitude and quietude, I can recharge until I've gathered enough energy and self- confidence to face the world again. I will come out calm, resume life, make others happy, make them smile. Like everyone else, I also like to experience the world, to go on adventure, to love and to be loved. But when I perceive something off again, I go back to the rabbit hole.

BECAUSE I'm guarded, I won't let you get too close; enable you to break my walls. You can take a glimpse but you will never get to know the real me. But know that if I let you in, you are special. In time I share with you a treasure trove of life experiences and stories.

I'm hard to live with. I push people away and ruin relationships this way. But as the Little Prince says, only the heart can see what is essential, what is invisible to the eye.