I Am Always Exhausted
I'm not even sure where to start. I desperately want to talk about how I'm feeling but I am scared because I think no one will care.
I haven't had the easiest life so far, not as bad as others, but still has left a lot of scars. I had my son when I was really young, his father was abusive, it was all bad. My son has serious behaviour issues, he gets suspended almost every week, gets in trouble at home, it's so bad that I can't even work because I can't get him a babysitter that will or can handle him. I went back to school to get my SD then went to college and busted my butt for three years expecting my life to be so different than it is, and it just is a complete waste now. I'm disappointed with my life.
Some days are worse than others, like today, I just feel an unbelievable amount of sadness. I am doing everything I can to help this boy, there always something that I have to do or some apt I have to go. I'm so overwhelmed with everything right now that I have been thinking about ending my life. Breathe...I'm not going to. I just can't shake it today, my thoughts have taken over and I wish I could. Please don't misunderstand, I love my son, very much! It's just that I have been doing this alone for so long and I feel like I'm losing it.
I'm not trying to whine, I just needed to say it, or type it.
Thanks.
I haven't had the easiest life so far, not as bad as others, but still has left a lot of scars. I had my son when I was really young, his father was abusive, it was all bad. My son has serious behaviour issues, he gets suspended almost every week, gets in trouble at home, it's so bad that I can't even work because I can't get him a babysitter that will or can handle him. I went back to school to get my SD then went to college and busted my butt for three years expecting my life to be so different than it is, and it just is a complete waste now. I'm disappointed with my life.
Some days are worse than others, like today, I just feel an unbelievable amount of sadness. I am doing everything I can to help this boy, there always something that I have to do or some apt I have to go. I'm so overwhelmed with everything right now that I have been thinking about ending my life. Breathe...I'm not going to. I just can't shake it today, my thoughts have taken over and I wish I could. Please don't misunderstand, I love my son, very much! It's just that I have been doing this alone for so long and I feel like I'm losing it.
I'm not trying to whine, I just needed to say it, or type it.
Thanks.
