VOI NYT PYHÄ VITTU, Why is it so hard to make friends with decent people.

I've been struggling with meeting new people and making friends. i feel like i fumble way too easily or are too scared to talk to people and get to know them. BUT WHEN I FINALLY DO that person appears to be the worst kinds of people or people i just cant stand. Like one time i thought i made a friend through a game who even lived in the same city, but then they soon revealed to be like a drugdealer or smth. Highly sucspicious. then there was a time i thought i made a friend in the during my conscription, but noooo they were secretlyt very bigoted and the entire group i was in was too.

There are other examples but ffs i cannot take this. i feel like im going insane. like maybe the bigoted people look at me (a cis het white man) and feel like im part of them or smth. i feel like i cannot trust anyone to make friends with anyone.

Like i feel like i would much rather be friends with people who belong to LGBTQ+ communities or smth. but me not being part of that group would feel me being like in a place where i do not belong. but that is an irrational fear bc label does not make a person and their surrounding. from the two friends i have one is bi(or lesbian not so sure at this point) and other is asexual, so there really isnt problem there. its just when looking for new friends if i only seek signs of "queerness" that would be wierd yk.

i feel like i should just give up at this point...