Day 2 on crutches and im already going crazy

I use physical activity and being mobile as a big distraction. Im always doing something. Cleaning something organizing something. Walking around pacing chasing after kiddos (when they are with me) just overall do not like sitting still at all. The longer I sit the more anxious I get and it sucks.

Im currently laid up with a bad ankle sprain. Which hurts more today than yesterday when I sprained it! Yesterday was a very bad bad day mentally for me. The thoughts that I’ve been feeling the emotions. I felt so lost in my own thoughts and my emotions.

Im still reeling from it today. It’s overwhelming and underwhelming at the same time. It felt like I was feeling every bad thought and feeling and nothing at the same time. I felt so alone and also so exposed. I can’t really explain it. I still can’t im just hoping maybe if I write something out maybe the words would start to make sense but I still don’t think they are. Hopefully this pain pill will kick in soon and I can escape at least for a bit because this shit is horrible.