Healing takes time

So yesterday was my birthday and I just wanted my family around me and it was a lovely day but after a couple of drink I realised I started talking about my ex best friend again which my sons made me aware of.

I then burst into tears and i actually realised that I’m still carrying some deep pain she had caused which I thought I had healed from but the tears clearly show I hadn’t.

I’m grateful for my sons making me aware as I now know I still have healing to do, what she did hurt me on such a deep level because I thought we was so close and I would never of done what she done to me.

Now I have to sit with myself and somehow heal this pain but where to start is the question?