The days just kind of blur together

The days just blur together and it's been like this for some years now. It's like I'm not even creating memories anymore. I'm just existing on this planet to just exist and go through the motion. I think some people may call that "depression" but I don't think it is, because it doesn't last this long unless somebody has clinical depression disorder. It's less of how I feel, more about how my life has gone. Nothing feels the same anymore. No matter what I do, it puts me in the same position which creates this same feeling. It's a never-ending cycle of circumstance. I'm not boohooing about it, there are people who are going through far worse. It's just kind of interesting once you become very aware of this phenomena. Maybe slowly but surely I've become a nihilist, though I don't see everything as pointless, more so you get to a place where the way things are in the world, plus your circumstances puts you in an interesting position of not having a concrete destination. All you can do is wake up and try again but you blink and 5 years have already went by......