I know I'm at my lowest if I'm back on this app.

Over the years, this site has witnessed my lowest. Weirded that year after year of chaos, I'm still here. Still wanting to end up dead. All the fucking time. Kelan ba ako mamamatay? Gusto ko mabilis lang. But then again, life. For sure I'm gonna have a slow and painful death. Hindi na ako magugulat. All my life im in a different kind of hell naman. If reincarnation is real, if second chances at life is real, i don't want it. Ayoko na mabuhay pa ulit.