i feel bad i only go to fb sometimes and
i miss everyones birthdays and stuff even my fav people idk why i cant spend much time there.. it's too emotional for me
then i was over here being a **** and all that.. even tho i was raised super religious i kinda went off from it all because of adverse things
but i'm starting to reconsider everything ..
even tho i was married for a long time for a long time i was trying to escape my husband and because of that developed some vice and habits i shouldn't have
so i just want to say sorry to whoever i crossed paths with while going on with my vices because it was terrible of me .. i tried to be a better person at times but my habits were too much for me so i kept falling in
but lately i feel like just snapping out of it .. when you know certain roads are dead ends and just wrong and whatever and i know i'm being really vague but thats because the stuff was stupid and scandalous so
idk if i should bother mentioning all this crap because i just want to forget about it but i remember and i'm sorry i wasn't a better person to people .. my hub and whoever else i was shitty to in my total selfishness 🤐 it's been like 20 years my mind was in a muck of things and i just want to straighten out and let go of dreams that don't belong to me aka the elusive child i never had 🥹 and some man to give her too me in love.. which is fine to want things for single people but trying to fall in love with someone else while already married is a moronic move and wrong but i did try over and over and thought i was more than a few times .. and everything else
trying to break away to whatever
but it's like a train wreck and i regret whatever .. so i'm not a kid anymore i'm over 40.. i know people can fall into stupidity at any age but 😒
anyway i just wanna be more sincere and less stupid
also about the whole palistine vs israel thing i also have other things to say about that because i do have sympathy for the oppressed it's just a matter of opinion on who is causing it and why and i feel like not everyone has a clear picture of it .. everyone just focuses on their own views for their own reasons and it's a complex issue one could make a whole film series on it 😒 for those who don't read to understand better
it's appalling the lvl of racism people have 😤 and bias
i have a lot of work to do on myself and my mindset .. clear my path stop being a turd and whatever also my language usage namely my foul language usage i need to curb too ..
idk if it's premature to blurt all this crap .. but i'm hoping i'm really over my shit once and for all
to just be content with my life and not be selfish and greedy of life itself 😏 which was what i was after previously but was going about it all wrong.. my bad 😒 some people hate that saying but whatever 😒😳
idk if i should post this or not but i will for a minute 😳😏
then i was over here being a **** and all that.. even tho i was raised super religious i kinda went off from it all because of adverse things
but i'm starting to reconsider everything ..
even tho i was married for a long time for a long time i was trying to escape my husband and because of that developed some vice and habits i shouldn't have
so i just want to say sorry to whoever i crossed paths with while going on with my vices because it was terrible of me .. i tried to be a better person at times but my habits were too much for me so i kept falling in
but lately i feel like just snapping out of it .. when you know certain roads are dead ends and just wrong and whatever and i know i'm being really vague but thats because the stuff was stupid and scandalous so
idk if i should bother mentioning all this crap because i just want to forget about it but i remember and i'm sorry i wasn't a better person to people .. my hub and whoever else i was shitty to in my total selfishness 🤐 it's been like 20 years my mind was in a muck of things and i just want to straighten out and let go of dreams that don't belong to me aka the elusive child i never had 🥹 and some man to give her too me in love.. which is fine to want things for single people but trying to fall in love with someone else while already married is a moronic move and wrong but i did try over and over and thought i was more than a few times .. and everything else
trying to break away to whatever
but it's like a train wreck and i regret whatever .. so i'm not a kid anymore i'm over 40.. i know people can fall into stupidity at any age but 😒
anyway i just wanna be more sincere and less stupid
also about the whole palistine vs israel thing i also have other things to say about that because i do have sympathy for the oppressed it's just a matter of opinion on who is causing it and why and i feel like not everyone has a clear picture of it .. everyone just focuses on their own views for their own reasons and it's a complex issue one could make a whole film series on it 😒 for those who don't read to understand better
it's appalling the lvl of racism people have 😤 and bias
i have a lot of work to do on myself and my mindset .. clear my path stop being a turd and whatever also my language usage namely my foul language usage i need to curb too ..
idk if it's premature to blurt all this crap .. but i'm hoping i'm really over my shit once and for all
to just be content with my life and not be selfish and greedy of life itself 😏 which was what i was after previously but was going about it all wrong.. my bad 😒 some people hate that saying but whatever 😒😳
idk if i should post this or not but i will for a minute 😳😏
