how can i ' work out ' this problem
at times i get paranoid, i've had paranoia since age 16, i'm 48 now...and in the present time, at times, i get the persistent obsessive ideas that i've been 'portrayed' to people wrongly? and now 'people' have a perception of me which isn't true? a negative unfavorable perception.
i have no evidence of these ideas, i never have done, no one's ever said to me and said ' are you this or that or associated with this person ' etc but just a feeling, like i suspect these ideas.
but sometimes i worry i see evidence for these suspicions or ideas i get when i'm online, in interactions i have or replies i get, because i've had times where someone has posted something ' not true ' about me and i've said to that person ' no that's not true'...and times where someone else has assumed things which were untrue and not relevant to me? and i thought ' where did these people get those ideas from' or ' why did they post that or think it? '- when i'm a stranger to that person? ie- why would someone i don't know say those things or those words, which are not relevant to me?
then the paranoid ideas returned of ' am i being portrayed wrongly to people ' and ' do people have a perception of me that is false and not true'?
can anyone give reassurance or just help me to work out this problem? just one good reply would help with this, as i find reassurance from people and discussing it takes away this paranoia.
i have no evidence of these ideas, i never have done, no one's ever said to me and said ' are you this or that or associated with this person ' etc but just a feeling, like i suspect these ideas.
but sometimes i worry i see evidence for these suspicions or ideas i get when i'm online, in interactions i have or replies i get, because i've had times where someone has posted something ' not true ' about me and i've said to that person ' no that's not true'...and times where someone else has assumed things which were untrue and not relevant to me? and i thought ' where did these people get those ideas from' or ' why did they post that or think it? '- when i'm a stranger to that person? ie- why would someone i don't know say those things or those words, which are not relevant to me?
then the paranoid ideas returned of ' am i being portrayed wrongly to people ' and ' do people have a perception of me that is false and not true'?
can anyone give reassurance or just help me to work out this problem? just one good reply would help with this, as i find reassurance from people and discussing it takes away this paranoia.
46-50, M
