I feel burnt out.

I feel burnt out from working my cushy job.
I feel burnt out from driving to work twice a week.
I feel burnt out from living with my friend even though she is nice.
I feel burnt out from occasional phone calls from my family even though they love me.

I am very weak and I wish I was not like this.

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Fukfacewillie · 56-60, M

You have the “is this it” blues.

BlueVeins · 22-25

@Fukfacewillie More like the "Is this all I am" blues. The world is big and beautiful. I just wish I had the energy to act in it more.

Fukfacewillie · 56-60, M

@BlueVeins Hmm, like what might you do? You chose a safe career. As did I.

BlueVeins · 22-25

@Fukfacewillie I don't regret that. I just wish I could spend more time doing things that I care about after hours without crashing after a week or so. I wish I could be the friend I have always imagined myself as.

Fukfacewillie · 56-60, M

@BlueVeins What do you mean crashing after a week? And is there a friend you’re neglecting?

BlueVeins · 22-25

@Fukfacewillie crashing as in like, running out of energy and being forced to rest.

I kind of neglect all of my friends to some extent. Even my brother, he calls me and I don't pick up half the time because I just do not have the bandwidth to talk. It's not good but I don't really feel like I can fix it.

Fukfacewillie · 56-60, M

@BlueVeins Work taking out the life force?

BlueVeins · 22-25

@Fukfacewillie Not really. Like sometimes when I have a big workload but it's not that bad generally.

Fukfacewillie · 56-60, M

@BlueVeins Some self-reflection seems in order.