Why was I treated so different?

I've had some time to really think about things.

I was so open and transparent because I wanted this to work.

I told you that I had difficult family relationships growing up and 1 in particular still remains challenging. (Which you have witnessed)

I told you that I suffer from various health issues and low spectrum mental ones.

I told you my anxieties around flying and certain figures.

I went as far as to tell you I have never felt confident doing a "trust fall" with anyone.

You went out of your way on different occasions to try and help me to overcome these fears.

But when I needed you to stand up for me with your people/family.

When I needed you to assert my position in your life.

When I needed you to hold them accountable for their disrespect.

When I needed you to set better boundaries, you told me I was pressuring you, that I wasn't doing anything to help the situation either, that I was expecting a snap 🫰🏾 resolution. You told me that you were trying to fix things but didn't know how?

Why was it essential for you to push me to fix my fears, whilst those problems, such a challenge.

It was an excuse, because you didn't really want to.

You placed these people above me time and time again.

Your actions showed me that you thought I was beneath them...

You accepted them whole heartedly,.whilst making me feel like had serious problems.

You tried to destabilise me but why I don't understand.

Noone ever wants to feel like that.