it’s my birthday july 22

it’s my birthday and as much as it’s meant to be a celebration it reminds me how lonely it really is. it reminds me of how weird i am, how disconnected from this earth i feel, how i can’t love myself, i feel as if i’m too dumb or not worthy of this. i haven’t felt like myself for awhile. just yapping anonymously. sometimes i don’t wanna live anymore.