If it wasn't for my kids

@AuRevoir they're smart and observant but I communicate with them openly on a level they can understand. They know to some degree I'm struggling a bit mentally but I'm trying my hardest for them.

@XcookiexbakerX At least you’ve done your best to not let them go through sudden shock if things hit the fan… They’ll be more well prepared from that truth you’ve communicated with them.

Hopefully you start to find some happiness for yourself even if your home situation isn’t ideal with your husband..

@AuRevoir I've been divorced for a few years now, I am in a relationship now. It's a combination of what I've been through and what I'm going through now. Just can feel very overwhelming and I have a history with attempting when I was really depressed. Long history of abuse from a child, young women and my marriage, just can feel really heavy sometimes but I'm really good at compartmentalizing.

@XcookiexbakerX Ah, I see… Soon as kids are mentioned I thought it was a current husband related issue… But it’s more of a whole life thing…

Well I still hope you start to find happiness in place of what was once depression.

I’m sorry you’ve faced so much abuse at what seems to be every instance of your life… I’m glad that you can at least be open and vent to release some of the problems weighing on your mind.