Feel pukey. Apparently at work no superiors expected me to pass my exams.

I just felt as if they are betting on the fact that I won't. It's so weird. I felt this because one of my more senior colleagues said "see I told you she can. She's a smart one." etc etc playfully. I felt as if something had been said along the lines of me having limited abilities/intelligence. And I had also been indirectly told by one of my superiors that I am stupid a few months ago.

But I prayed very hard for this and I worked hard.

I have a lump in my throat. I'm on a break at the moment typing this, trying to gather myself. I want to like myself. I want to be comfortable in my skin. I don't want to feel stupid all the time.