Just cried for the first time in awhile
It's 2am rn, I'm in bed as i write this. I'm supposed to be asleep rn so I could be up in time for school and work tomorrow but instead I'm here.
I just realized like 99% of my friendships(both long and short term ones) go the same; we'd talk, I'd get comfortable with them and start opening up leading to me accidentally trauma dumping on them and coming off as just complaining to them, making them leave. Now I'm scared about opening up to people I talk to both rn and in the future and I hate myself for it. And now here I am, opening up again to strangers on the internet who I'll likely never meet (i say again because i used to use reddit but that's a whole other can of worms). I wish I could just keep my mouth shut then maybe I'd have more friends.
Anyways, I'm probably gonna be up for maybe another hour before passing out so yeah, bye
I just realized like 99% of my friendships(both long and short term ones) go the same; we'd talk, I'd get comfortable with them and start opening up leading to me accidentally trauma dumping on them and coming off as just complaining to them, making them leave. Now I'm scared about opening up to people I talk to both rn and in the future and I hate myself for it. And now here I am, opening up again to strangers on the internet who I'll likely never meet (i say again because i used to use reddit but that's a whole other can of worms). I wish I could just keep my mouth shut then maybe I'd have more friends.
Anyways, I'm probably gonna be up for maybe another hour before passing out so yeah, bye
