Lately I feel like quitting my job

I am a perfectionist and want things to happen for myself but at the same time, it’s hard to make the effort and make things happen for myself, and instead I complain about it and WISH for the change to happen. And then I get upset and discouraged when I fail and what I want but that I’m “not trying hard enough” to make happen. With work, it’s getting really discouraging when I get reprimanded. I WILL make it to South Korea one day to become a teacher but until then, I will stick it out at my job. I guess. I’m not a quitter even though I don’t try hard enough for what I want.