when you go through times of insecurity what do you do

[c=005E2F][i]thinking what if this...what if that? - i live alone in a little council apartment on the 3rd floor of a 4th story building and i go through these great times of insecurity and loneliness.....i think what will i do if my elderly mum and dad pass away.....or what will i do when they're no longer around and i end up on my own?


i'm quite vulnerable really as i have mental problems i struggle with myself and can sometimes get delusional/ paranoid.......ive done well to forge ahead and come this far through all my life's problems but i spend a lot of time indoors thinking 'what if this happens.....what if that happens''.......i feel deeply alone and wonder will i ever find a partner/companionship - as i haven't so far, because i had too many problems...


i'm very close to my mum and dad and couldn't bare life without them...they live an hour away now, so quite far from me.

how do you live with deep insecurity like this?[/i][/c]