anybody else have a hard time seeing what other see in them romantically?
On paper, yeah I understand I have value but still...just she's so amazing and probably is too good for me. She looks like a fashion model. My god she is effortlessly beautiful. She's always happy to be around me and never asks me for anything. She just wants to be near me but idk it feels too good to be true. Like reality is just going to hit me in the face. People always end up leaving me...I know this is probably some childhood trauma of being kicked out of my home as a teenager. However She knows so much about me. Things very few people know and yet she still smiles with her eyes when looking at me. It gives me warmth that I can accomplish so much more. Sometimes I want to hug her so hard and never let go but I know I can't keep a bird stuck in a cage. I hope I'm not holding her back.