PLS CHOOSE !!!!

im just venting dont mind me please, im apparently a student on hold. tbh i dont go to school temporary until i find a good environment for me.this year i transferred to 5 differences school,the last school that i attend was a religious boarding school, that school was just sucks...i was a second intake so i got look down alot there but i dont really care about them.. i just know theyre jealous.The first day there i guess its okay when my mother sent me there i dont feel sad or either happy i just felt nothing.The seniors stared at me alot both guys and girls , they did compliment me for my beauty and all some people were shocked to see how beautiful i was but what part of my face they think is attractive? whenever i go past them walking they look at me and were shocked to see me.They say when the first time they saw me the first thing in their head was shes so beautiful.fyi, i dont really get along w others u just sit and smile even this one girl noticed it and said "why is she just smiling and not talking?' i dont know what to talk about n i was scared.. when the seniors hang out in my dormitory they started talking about me and the leader said who? and all of her friend pointed at me thats the pretty face but crooked teeth girl. I kinda feel sad and i wanna just hide in the corner like my heart felt so heavy.Then on wednesday and so on.. seniors and the one same batch as me start hitting on me but i dont really care as long they're not pushing me or what. But i like this one seniors that was attractive he was a teachers pet and he was always by his teachers sides, onces we sec-intake got called to the cafeteria for basic dormitory life briefing and i got to sit infront of him.I was just minding my own business and talking w my friend then i caught him staring at me when i look at him he looked away, when i talked w my friend he looked at me again... i know he was staring at me for the whole times , but the first time i caught him staring at me... i know he looked at me for so longgg.. not like a creepy stare but more of a like fallin in love.then a few months later i transferred school i still liked him but i wish that we can met again as friend or more.Right now, basically i am not set on stone...i got a school but it is far from my parents and i have to lived w my grandparents i lived once with my grandparents they were wonderful but know theyre old so i declined the offer n if i go there i got to meet all of my friend and my old crush but i dont think he will remember me tho.but will he fall for me for the sec time? i still remember back in second grade he sits next to me and he really like to play with my round shape sharpener that comes with a mirror and one day he dropped it but i was not mad bc i liked him.some of my friends know that i liked him but i just dont want to expressed my feelings.then i remember we had a free time to do what eva we want so he saw me lookin at my arabic textbook. (he was chinese n diff religion) fyi i was sitting by myself then he grabbed his chair and sits next to me he asked what was i reading? then i say its an arabic book he asked me if i can teach me some words? then i said yes .. my other friend name jacheal who sits infront of me he turned his head n ask me if i can teach him too.. so i said yes n i got 2 students. I guess we were too noisy that the teacher noticed but i just know that the teacher is racist against us being together n she started screaming at us. :D i wish we can meet again my dear 2 friend D and Jacheal...




school A:i will lived with my grandparents that is old and jobless,but they live w my 2 uncle but they rarely comes home.the school that i will be going to was my parents old school. there are my friend that i still in contact with but they dont remember my face only one but we will be in different classsroom and blocks.met my crush when i was in 2nd grade.They dont remember my long name and face but only remember the name that i was called which is "H" , so i guess new identity but will get exposed if they eventually remembers my name.from my perspective:place filled w average lookin face w some goodlookin faces. some r smart some r average some r dumb.50% low class 40% middle class 10% high class. with different nationalities and a public school. going back home at 1;00 mid day


school B:in 7 months ill be living with my parents then my sister will be taking care of me cuz both my parents will transfer to a new town.i wanted to live w my older sister cuz she is fun to live with but sometimes she is harsh n woke up very late and has no husb, lazy too but fun cuz she loves going out n me too! n she will bring her bf too. but i dont get along w my brother we havent spoke in like 3 years but lives in the same rooftop. the school that ill attend to is the sam school that my brother went to.he was kinda furious when he heard that ill be going to the same school as him but i dont care about him cuz he broke me first. cant trust nobody.from my perspective;place filled w rich kids but not so smart kid n average face.80% rich 15%middle class 5%low class. religious private school but not a boarding school we go back home at 3pm not night. so please decide for me which is good for me