I just wish I had some support

Iv lost a lot in the last years . It was my bad decision making but I have more plans for myself I’m going to push myself a bit harder and make some decisions. Iv been in school and I haven’t worked in months I need new clothes and sneakers because mine are old and you can tell it’s been worn out. I feel when people look at me they feel sorry and I don’t need that . I hate going through a hard time and everyone can see that, I pray god will help me and that the universe will help me because I hate giving up I have so much to lose. You shouldn’t care what people think of u but it does affect me . I took a look at the 3 dirty sneakers I have and the little bit of clothes I have been wearing for the past year and thought to myself I should be doing more and I need to reach out to reseources. I have a great soul and I’m pretty I should be in a better spot in life, iv been celibate and not giving myself to just anyone . I want to do better and I will prove to myself that I can do anything