I try not to kill myself lol

The last couple days iv been getting a grasp on trying to study and be a mom at the same time , how the hell do you this, I never have time to study if I stay up unusually wake up in a bad mood and my son is up before me and if I sleep early I miss out on studying . The weekends are hard because my son is with me and even the weekdays when’s he is in daycare I find myself having to call a million places and do a million things god I pray he guides me and helps me so I can pass this state exam to get is a good job in May. My life is depending on this course or I’ll never make it . I have no help nothing , I’m tired of depending on the government and I’m tired of everyone bashing me I wanna do this for me and prove that I can do anything . This ids for my kids and I want to get my oldest daughter back in my custody. I know its gonna take a lot of sacrifices and I will get there I know it