I feel broken...

[24/01, 6:38 pm] : I won't lie, as nice as it was to be at my sisters christening. It made me feel a bit out of it.
[24/01, 6:38 pm] : I don't think my dad really understood what he did to us kids.
[24/01, 6:38 pm] : It's fucked up really especially as I think, because I lived with him the most, it affected me in a way where like being there, I felt like I didn't want to get too much closer to her and her family, cos I feel like i'll just ruin it!
[24/01, 6:38 pm] : Not really something I say out loud.
[24/01, 6:38 pm]: But it's something I feel...