Christmas, pls come sooner.

I don't know, it's been a horrible week after my hamster died and everything has gone down hill, my mom was diagnosed with SLE and there's no cure, facing with losing my hamster my mentally health just went down and now it's even worse, and today at my school i don't know if i will pass or not but i think, my math test. it's gonna be fail, cause i barely can solve any of it and i feel like I let everyone disappointed of me. Even tho they didn't expect muc but that even hurts me more so i just expect myself to be better and pay for my extra study, now i feel pity of the money if I don't pass it. I feel like shit, and i also applied for a scholarship and it's also seems like I won't get selected either, I know this sound like I'm just complaining of something that seems to be tiny issue to others but to me I feel so terrible and down. Maybe i shouldn't tried at all, i wish it's gonna be Christmas soon, cause now I don't wanna stay at this time any longer