Back and forth
I'm again at this point of not loving truly myself. It's not exactly the same point that used to be, as now I'm able to recognise the thoughts and not dwell in them 100% ..
Yet just them appearing is changing my life...I become unwanted again, lonely and separated. I become a low level company, I am not standing on my own feet, I'm not in my power.
I can see how characters from my previous state are approaching me again, the dark and miserable types or the shrunk ones... I try to keep some distance and that makes me feel heartless but I know this can't be good for me right now.
A cold I caught and my period aren't helping much and I feel some kind of pressure too.
I'll go for a walk in a park maybe later but you know, Kathmandu is so dusty from some soil streets that even crossing the streets to reach to the forest seems too much.
Everything is going to be alright eventually. I know, I'll make it again to the other state of loving myself, where the whole world loves me back.
But right now, these dark thoughts are passing by, judging me and everyone else nearby. I'll try some meditation and silence for a little while 💙
Yet just them appearing is changing my life...I become unwanted again, lonely and separated. I become a low level company, I am not standing on my own feet, I'm not in my power.
I can see how characters from my previous state are approaching me again, the dark and miserable types or the shrunk ones... I try to keep some distance and that makes me feel heartless but I know this can't be good for me right now.
A cold I caught and my period aren't helping much and I feel some kind of pressure too.
I'll go for a walk in a park maybe later but you know, Kathmandu is so dusty from some soil streets that even crossing the streets to reach to the forest seems too much.
Everything is going to be alright eventually. I know, I'll make it again to the other state of loving myself, where the whole world loves me back.
But right now, these dark thoughts are passing by, judging me and everyone else nearby. I'll try some meditation and silence for a little while 💙
