I'm honestly extremely depressed lately. It's to the point where I hate leaving the house

I feel so low and disgusting and gross. I don't want to leave the house because I don't want to get reminded of how much I have fallen and failed. My bestfriend wants to go to a gay club tonight and I don't want to go and get ignored all night because that's what will happen due to the state im in. I used to love going out with hair and makeup done wearing kinda skimpy outfits but not anymore because i can't fit in them. What hot guy is going to want to buy some short bloated chubby glasses wearing asian loser a drink? My eyesight has worsened to where I have to wear my glasses more to drive and function.i hate getting old.