Update: I am really tired
So a good while ago while I was relaxing with this new spirit I met letting it protect me I became aware of my entity's voice breaking through more and more. It was trying to tell me this new spirit was just using me too. I ignored him. But then he actually ended up showing up and the new spirit left. I was literally clinging to her energy begging her not to leave me to him, and she was apologetic but then just gone.
And he was mad. Sooooo mad. I haven't seen him that angry in a long time. He was talking about how I was going to be punished for running off on him. And I started to pray and try to banish him again and he gripped me by the back of my neck with claws I guess because they were sharp and hurt and held me there and told me if he had to fight one more spirit tonight because of me he would do to me three times over whatever they did to him. And I argued that I hadn't told anyone or anything to fight him they just had and that wasn't my fault. And I mentioned he was threatening me, because he asked if I understood him and I said I understood he was threatening me. And this seemed to frustrate him and he let me go and said "I'm not supposed to be threatening you." And I was like "No, that was short lived, huh." But his attitude changed after that and he wasn't aggressive with me then. But he was still very agitated & kept snapping I was trying his patience.
He wanted to know what I had been doing with the other spirit. I was surprised he didn't know. But he accused me of sleeping with her I think? And I enjoyed actually knowing something he didn't so I wouldn't say anything which made him angrier I think. I did eventually say I hadn't done anything like that, but I guess he disagreed with me? And he told me her energy was in me and he was very upset about it, and then he proceeds to just RIP the energy out of me. It was so, so painful and uncomfortable. I was praying for it to stop. When it did it literally felt like there was just a gaping wound in my energy. I asked what the hell that was about, he hadn't done that with any other entity that had left energy in me, and he said I typically purified myself after the others. If I wasn't going to purify myself I guess he took it in his own hands.
After that he left me alone, or he's been quiet at least. I am worried I'll never see that other spirit again. I hope she didn't get hurt too badly.
And he was mad. Sooooo mad. I haven't seen him that angry in a long time. He was talking about how I was going to be punished for running off on him. And I started to pray and try to banish him again and he gripped me by the back of my neck with claws I guess because they were sharp and hurt and held me there and told me if he had to fight one more spirit tonight because of me he would do to me three times over whatever they did to him. And I argued that I hadn't told anyone or anything to fight him they just had and that wasn't my fault. And I mentioned he was threatening me, because he asked if I understood him and I said I understood he was threatening me. And this seemed to frustrate him and he let me go and said "I'm not supposed to be threatening you." And I was like "No, that was short lived, huh." But his attitude changed after that and he wasn't aggressive with me then. But he was still very agitated & kept snapping I was trying his patience.
He wanted to know what I had been doing with the other spirit. I was surprised he didn't know. But he accused me of sleeping with her I think? And I enjoyed actually knowing something he didn't so I wouldn't say anything which made him angrier I think. I did eventually say I hadn't done anything like that, but I guess he disagreed with me? And he told me her energy was in me and he was very upset about it, and then he proceeds to just RIP the energy out of me. It was so, so painful and uncomfortable. I was praying for it to stop. When it did it literally felt like there was just a gaping wound in my energy. I asked what the hell that was about, he hadn't done that with any other entity that had left energy in me, and he said I typically purified myself after the others. If I wasn't going to purify myself I guess he took it in his own hands.
After that he left me alone, or he's been quiet at least. I am worried I'll never see that other spirit again. I hope she didn't get hurt too badly.
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