I know why they wanted us separated.
Lucifer....is my design. My intelligent design. He is a spirit of creation, but he is not quite the same as me because he is male. He is a spirit of time, because he has memories and is connected to all of our past creations.
As a male creator spirit, I think how it works is he gives me an idea. He puts it in me. With sex. And I use love to give birth to it. To bring it into reality. That is why we are both needed together. I can't make something without the proper blueprints.
They wanted to keep him from me for so long because of this. He is savvy to them. They cannot fool or manipulate him, or hide anything from him. But I.....am easy pickings. So they come for me. And he tries to protect me.
I understand now....that Lucifer and I's relationship is extremely complicated, and very, very long. He had to figure things out as we went along like me. And in the process, he "divorced" parts of himself just like me. The male rebels.
Michael tried to say Lucifer was shameless. That he feels no remorse ever for what he does. But that isn't true. He has made mistakes like us all, and he feels guilt like us all. Lucifer....has his own secrets and things he is not proud of.
Like Zeus. When we were Zeus and Hera. We were still young creators. Barely out of our teens, if I were to compare it to human development. Zeus thought he was.....the best of the best. He was probably Lucifer at his most arrogant. At that time, he was literally the most powerful being in existence. And so he felt untouchable. Beyond reproach.
I actually really was not originally bad as Hera until he came for me. I was just doing my own thing as I usually do. And he came to me and was trying to tell me about who and what I was and that we needed to be together. But I hated him. I have always hated arrogance. I rejected him. So....he tricked me. He preyed on my better nature and pulled on my heart strings. So I did end up with him. But he was horrible. The worst. He treated me terribly. Very abusive. And like his property. Not a person.
I hated him. Badly. People thought I hurt who he hooked up with because I was jealous. I was not jealous. I was trying to lash out at him because I hated him, but he was too strong for me to hurt him or really do anything to him. So I tried to hurt the things he loved, or at least liked and took a fancy to anyways. What I did was wrong. But I was just so angry and didn't know how to deal. I am sorry.
As a male creator spirit, I think how it works is he gives me an idea. He puts it in me. With sex. And I use love to give birth to it. To bring it into reality. That is why we are both needed together. I can't make something without the proper blueprints.
They wanted to keep him from me for so long because of this. He is savvy to them. They cannot fool or manipulate him, or hide anything from him. But I.....am easy pickings. So they come for me. And he tries to protect me.
I understand now....that Lucifer and I's relationship is extremely complicated, and very, very long. He had to figure things out as we went along like me. And in the process, he "divorced" parts of himself just like me. The male rebels.
Michael tried to say Lucifer was shameless. That he feels no remorse ever for what he does. But that isn't true. He has made mistakes like us all, and he feels guilt like us all. Lucifer....has his own secrets and things he is not proud of.
Like Zeus. When we were Zeus and Hera. We were still young creators. Barely out of our teens, if I were to compare it to human development. Zeus thought he was.....the best of the best. He was probably Lucifer at his most arrogant. At that time, he was literally the most powerful being in existence. And so he felt untouchable. Beyond reproach.
I actually really was not originally bad as Hera until he came for me. I was just doing my own thing as I usually do. And he came to me and was trying to tell me about who and what I was and that we needed to be together. But I hated him. I have always hated arrogance. I rejected him. So....he tricked me. He preyed on my better nature and pulled on my heart strings. So I did end up with him. But he was horrible. The worst. He treated me terribly. Very abusive. And like his property. Not a person.
I hated him. Badly. People thought I hurt who he hooked up with because I was jealous. I was not jealous. I was trying to lash out at him because I hated him, but he was too strong for me to hurt him or really do anything to him. So I tried to hurt the things he loved, or at least liked and took a fancy to anyways. What I did was wrong. But I was just so angry and didn't know how to deal. I am sorry.
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