Weird feeling

I am unsure if this is manipulation. But....I have a weird feeling Lucifer is "on my side". He has been helping me. Not in a very nice way. But everything he has done I am starting to realize has been to my ultimate benefit. That is....strange. He is dishonest with his intents and cruel in his methods, yet he is still helping me. I am confused.

Perhaps this is his corruption. But underneath it all he still truly loves me. Oh I so badly want to believe it. But I can't. Not until I know more.